Monday, 29 October 2012

Some Clothes by Sophie

I am honestly sorry about my art skills, but I wanted a way to present my fantasy Autumn outfits in a nice way and drawing then seemed the best way. see the little numbers, they correspond with a little bit of information about the outfits I dream of
  1. Like every normal person I love the witchy vibe and midi skirts, and lace and clunky boots and also a bat handbag which I do actually own.
  2.       This outfit is inspired by this beautiful piece of advertising and also Downton Abbey which is rife with     gorgeous 1920's fabulousness
  3. The last outfit is basically very different to what I usually wear, and well shorts with hearts on the pockets........


I'm in Scotland.

So sorry for not posting anything, but I can't post from my phone and everything is a bit mad. There will most definitely be a huge post when I get home because I've taken so many pictures and thought of songs and discovered new music and aaahhh ( I bought NME for the first time evar, so yaay).

Will post something more interesting asap.


P.S one of the exciting things that has happened and I will go into more detail on is that PATRICK WOLF TWEETED ME (CRY)

Wednesday, 24 October 2012

inside me I feel alone and unreal

It's occurred to me that it's coming up to a year since I met Patrick Wolf; because of this, I've sort of been shrouded in mild wistfulness and nostalgia for a little while now. So, I decided, as it's coming up to Winter, it's more appropriate for these photos to be in black and white ( I understand my logic ).

He's so beautiful, I just can't. Re-kindled my passion for viola and music in general as soon as he came onstage.

This was really the best day of my life. I don't even know how long I was with him for, I was just too focused on being smitten and starstruck. But I'll treasure this picture forever.

I'm sure most teenagers are familiar with the old 'post-concert depression'. Although, the crying picture was actually taken before the show started, after I'd met Patrick and not knew how to deal with all the emotions. I got my mum to document my overwhelmed-ness.

Some pictures I'm planning to use in my upcoming zine (watch this space).

In other news, I'm so obsessed with This Mortal Coil's version of Late Night. I also love the video, very witchy and pretty. Perfect for Autumn!

Farewell loved ones!

Tomorrow I shall be travelling to Uganda!! I will be back in 10 days.I hope Sinead can entertain you sufficiently until then.

waving at you 

goodbye for now fabulous people.

Tuesday, 23 October 2012

new hair


let's go to the sea

As Sophie already said in her last post, on Sunday we went to Ilfracombe for seasidey escapades.

Vintage white circle skirt, vintage Sailor top (The Real McCoy's, Exeter) mum's navy cardigan and Topshop hair thing.

Vintage yellow leather gloves from Relevant. Because people from the 40s or whenever usually have inhumanly small hands, and I was lucky to find a pair that fit AND are beautiful.

The usual creepers (and koala socks).

Sophie and I enjoying a fun day at the folk festival. We are munchkin possums, are we not?

Anyway, I promise PROMISE I will post a Sundark and Riverlight review (also a lipstick review) ASAP.

Been busy with music-ness y'see.

Sorry for my absence, mwa mwa

Monday, 22 October 2012

a day at the seaside.

Sinead's rather fetching cat coasters that she bought
 in a souvenir shop.

an amusement arcade that was called
'sunspot' amusements not 'spot' amusement

strawberries and cream flavoured rock 

Sinead on guitar hero

Yesterday me and Sinead went to Ilfracombe ( for the folk festival )  and had a marvellous day. Firstly we went to see Damien Hirst's new sculpture 'Verity' which was quite interesting but a little too macabre for either of our tastes. Then we got fish and chips and sat on a big hill.Then we went to the amusement arcade and blew a lot of 2p's on some slot machines. After that we watched a folk band then decided to go on guitar hero in the amusement arcade ( which I was extremely terrible at),then we bought some rock and eat it by the sea. To finish the day we watched a lovely lady folk singer. All in all in was a lovely day.


Saturday, 20 October 2012

Badly painted nails

 Today I went shopping to buy toiletries for when I go to Uganda......

badly painted nails 

bitch face and hand

a very very very comfortable and snugly jumper 

I ended up, taking about an hour to choose my outfit which consisted of: A Pink linen skirt from Topshop, my Pink Floyd T-shirt that I got from a car boot, a home-made detachable collar, and black tights. The Cardigan you see in the photograph was purchased in a charity shop today. I also purchased a very marvellous lip pen and some gold hoop earring. I also had a very nice strawberry smoothie in Mark and Spencers. 

lots of lovings 

Friday, 19 October 2012

jätän kaunin kultaristin

The title of this post translates from Finnish as 'I'll leave behind my beautiful golden cross'. It is the first line of the chorus of my next composition for music. 

I'm going to tell you a little about said composition.

It basically has to have a link to world music in it, so I thought I'd use a big ol' reference to Finnish folklore (it's not totally random, my dad happens to be Finnish). I chose the story of Aino from the Kalevala (Finnish national epic poem type thing); Aino is meant to marry this old wizardy man and she doesn't want to so she drowns herself. But I liked it because it's oh so tragic and symbolic and one of the phrases that stuck in my mind was about how she left all her pretty things like her golden cross and her silk dress on the shore. 
picture :

Then I decided I wanted to put my own spin on it, so it's not just recycling someone else's ideas and stuff (I'm using a choir and very traditional melodic devices and instruments). So I'm going to put the verses -in English- into a more modern context. I thought I might say things like 'I can shave off all my hair and still be a girl' and other defiant, feministy things. Because when I read the story of Aino, the theme of defiance stands out to me - the fact that NO, she will NOT become someone's wife if she doesn't want to, and she would rather drown herself than just obey. This, to me, is the ultimate symbol of defiance.

So I'm basically combining the ideas oppression from that era and now, using traditional techniques and out-of-context lyrics. A kind of Aino = activist grrrl type thing.

Me in Finland 3 years ago.

I love Finland.


A dragon would be a great accessory at halloween.

Even though i'm in Uganda for Halloween ( not that I mind that much ) I have had a hankering for super witchy, black and lacey outfits and pointy victorian boots. Also while watching Merlin I have been loving Morgana's black lace dress, scary dark makeup and her Dragon (I may only be able to acquire the makeup and the Dress though.) 

Sources- unknown, Morgana in 'Merlin', Florence + the machine - heavy in your arms music video, unknown, Topshop 

Lots of sweets and scares 

Thursday, 18 October 2012

What I do when there is nothing on the television.

Sorry i've spelt 'woollen wrong'

I was mindlessly doodling some clothes of my dreams 

Such as delicate yet robust prairie dress that I can stride around in with clunky boots on my feet. A jumper with a super bright motif on it. Just any kind of witchy dress the more lacey and creepy the better and just a really cute 60's dress. 

gahhh I wish I could make clothes.



Because I like to copy Sinead, I decided to find a nice and awesome picture of her hiding in some ferns on Lundy Island. What can I say about Sinead, Sinead is flawless......... She does car commercials in Japan....stop. 

Lots of luv 


Wednesday, 17 October 2012

my friend

This is the very beautiful Sophie. In her very beautiful flower crown. I like this picture but didn't use it in my art project because it wasn't focused enough and I'm fussy. 

I think she has a very certain charisma and fairy-like air in this picture (and always).


bahhh what is wrong with me.

When I am about to sleep and I go over all the 'Stupid things' I have said in the day. Why on earth do I do that to myself? I should be trying to get to sleep, I should be counting sheep. But I do what millions of others do before I fall asleep. I worry. 

photos from 'House beautiful' and 'Shout' Magazine 
The need to fit in is starting to get boring and tiresome. So why am I still worrying about what people think of me?  Why can't I just let go of things, why can't I deal with the fact that once I've said something I can't take that back. So tonight i'm going try my hardest not to worry about the things i've said and what people might think of me. Tonight my head will be a nicer place.

I know this is the kind of damn awful angsty post I will look at in a few years and feel horribly embarrassed about. 

lots of angsty hugs 

who do I feel like such a teenager today ?

I feel bleak this evening

What's the point in trying to please everyone day in, day out? 

Some of our peers take us for granted. They don't see what we see in each other, Sophie and I.

I hate it when we feel the need to change our personalities around certain people.

Sometimes it feels wrong that I'm not happy or sad, or anything in between. I'm just a girl, sometimes.

And I fear I can't say certain things or I can't paint certain things without judgement at times.

Why should I already feel oppressed at 15? I haven't even begun to try to live my life independently yet.

The sky outside is peach and lilac and white and all I can feel is cheated, because I won't remember the beauty forever. 

I try so hard to make people hear what I'm saying, to actually listen to what I'm trying to get across to them, but my opinions are often greeted with unenthusiastic nods or smiles. 

I just want to feel like people respect my views; or even if they don't, I'd like a debate that didn't involve the other party belittling my ideas.

I don't feel like posting any new pictures of me today. Might wait til Saturday to do that, the rest of this week is going to be tiring and I just want to be in pyjamas as soon as I get home from school.

The brightness of the computer screen is hurting my sinuses and not helping my angst, so I'm going now. But I'll post a playlist based around teen troubles as soon as possible.

Sorry if I depressed anyone,

paying the price for 'beauty'

I just read that 63% of young women would rather be glamour models than things like doctors or teachers. This compelled me to rant.

I'm not against the whole modelling industry; of course that you can be a model and intelligent, or a pioneer in feminism, or an amazing person generally. It's just when girls want to be skinny because of models, and the media. And when girls who become models and pose in their underwear without really thinking of the implications, and therefore becoming vulnerable and letting others take the upper hand. The people who look at these girls are the ones who have control in the situation a lot of the time, and this is what is sad; this and the fact that some go into this sort of thing without knowing what will happen.

And I also think a huge reason so many young girls get eating disorders like anorexia and bulimia is from the misleading pictures that litter the internet; everyone wants to become this photoshopped 'it girl' Barbie doll that doesn't even exist. Saying this, I hate the fact that people who fall for the hype are judged for it; it's awful to tell someone they're stupid or whatever just because they end up believing the lies spread by the media and people who think skinny is beautiful.

For example, Karl Lagerfeld's (grrrr) views on models; he believes that people prefer to look at size 0 models and that those who oppose this do so because they are overweight. DISGUSTING MAN. Personally, I don't even know how much I weigh. I don't feel compelled to know. And I'm not even sure of my dress size, because I don't buy new clothes that much any more.

But then there are those amazing women that manage to keep their self-esteem and confidence, and stay true to themselves (AWFUL cliche but bear with me), and can be glamourous and beautiful and a fashion icon but still not abandon their personality for their career in fashion.

People like Agyness Deyn can empower themselves through their sexuality, and not necessarily be so afraid of what other people will think of them. I liked this quote of hers: "You know, even though I’m in fashion, I don’t, like, do fashion. Fashion isn’t me, even though I work in it. It’s just materialistic stuff. I just want to do whatever makes me happy..." I think this quote is really good, it shows how sure of herself she is and how she doesn't let fashion rule her or her life (yes, I know I'm obsessed with her. She's brilliant, okay?!).

It's just tragic that people assure themselves that the 'perfect' figure is attainable. Perfect is what you make it; you can't define something that is different to everyone. Just look at Marilyn Monroe; world-famous beauty icon, and she wasn't a size 6, flat-chested with a gap between her legs (which, by the way, isn't even physically possible; it's all clever photo editing to make girls aspire to be tiny). 

My point is, I don't think there's anything wrong with fashion or the idea of glamour models. Just the way society has changed it all so that it's become something people dread in a way; a symbol of insecurity and delusion for some. So to all those aspiring for a career in modelling or fashion, just make sure you keep a firm grasp on reality and, most importantly, yourself.

That's my ramble for the day.

Another useless attempt at appreciation.

I am a relative newbie to the the songs of Bat for Lashes or Natasha Khan as she is formally known. Alright I have had 'moon and moon' hanging around iTunes for a number of months (a year) but for some strange reason I didn't give her much thought. WHY ON EARTH DID I NOT GIVE HER MUCH THOUGHT! After this interview I happened to watch and also hearing 'Laura' play on Radio 6 pretty constantly.So I decided that I need a bit of Bat for lashes in my life. Basically I watched every video of hers on youtube and now I have to say I'm a bit of a fangirl. Here is for why my friends:

  1.First and extremely importantly her voice will damn near break your heart.

     2. Her music videos are completely mesmerising and weird and    beautiful. My favourite has to be 'Whats a girl to do?'

you can't see the bike but honestly she's on a bike in the 'whats a girl to do video'

 3. She dresses like she means it.  

 4.There is a surreal honestly about her, In her first album 'Two Suns' there seemed to be a lot of almost pagan references, but songs like 'Laura' are so completely beautifully honest with lyrics like: 

You say that they've all left you behind

Your heart broke when the party died

            Drape your arms around me and softly say 
               Can we dance upon the tables again?


Honestly she's the coolest, guys.

lots of love 

p.s - sorry I haven't blogged for a while